Well the movers are here...packing up. I SHOULD be happy that we can afford to do this. I SHOULD be excited to move back to the States where we will have support (Yeah!!) BUT, I'm really just sad. After spending just two days in Beijing, I realized how much I like it here, how interesting the Chinese culture is, and how much I will miss the challenge of learning a language. (I was so happy with how well we did in Beijing--some people were worried about us, but we did great! We used all public transport and mostly ate local food--loved it!)
The hardest part for me is that all this is being done for a girl who doesn't want to be with us anyway. I pray every day that God would just give us a ray of light--just to see that there is hope, BUT so far she chooses to sit and do the same wrong things over and over. There is a part in the Last Battle where a group of dwarves are surrounded by beauty, but won't allow themselves to be apart of it. They convince themselves that they're in a horrible place. That's the way I feel about Mitike. She has potential and she's had amazing opportunities (how many kids have been to 5 different countries in a year?), BUT she chooses to wallow in self pity and a self righteous attitude.
So, four more weeks here...pr*y with us that we finish well, are as loving as possible :), and enter well into America. China and Ana are very excited...Mitike has said she'll wait and see.
Thanks for partnering with us!
The hardest part for me is that all this is being done for a girl who doesn't want to be with us anyway. I pray every day that God would just give us a ray of light--just to see that there is hope, BUT so far she chooses to sit and do the same wrong things over and over. There is a part in the Last Battle where a group of dwarves are surrounded by beauty, but won't allow themselves to be apart of it. They convince themselves that they're in a horrible place. That's the way I feel about Mitike. She has potential and she's had amazing opportunities (how many kids have been to 5 different countries in a year?), BUT she chooses to wallow in self pity and a self righteous attitude.
So, four more weeks here...pr*y with us that we finish well, are as loving as possible :), and enter well into America. China and Ana are very excited...Mitike has said she'll wait and see.
Thanks for partnering with us!
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